Muzak

So much shit going on. Prioritize. Blah. Blah Blah.

Turn The Lights On

5 - 0 Bears are on their way.

I didn't have a chance to watch the game today. I was running around doing grocery shopping. Harried Hospital's Home Care rep assumed Fred wouldn't be sent over the weekend. Guess where I was when I got the call yesterday to go get him? Waiting in line at the tile store. This week's Grey's Anatomy episode had great one-liners about caregivers from Dr. Christina Yang (Sandra Oh). I don't know how the Thursday's ratings are shaping but I like the Friday scheduling. GA and then Men In Trees.

I have this bizarre heartburn that won't go away. It won't let me sleep or relax. I've tried every way I could think of short of standing on my head to get this burning/heaviness off of my chest. No, it's not a heart attack. All of the pains are center and veer to the right. Midnight and awake.

I could go into gross detail about the hole in Fred's skin where the bedsore used to be. It's packed with gauze soaked in saline and he won't let me change it. I'm grateful that at least it didn't hit bone.

You Missed The Starting Gun

If feels like it's been ages since I last posted here. I can't believe it's already October. It's not usually a good month for me since it's an anniversary of several bad past experiences. But I'm willing to keep an open mind about it. Thus far though it's keeping the usual m.o.

No sooner had Fred gotten home than he went back into the hospital. Because of possible legal moves, let's just say it was a result of his prior recent hospital stay. It pissed me off while B.J. was very non-chalant about the whole thing. I always appreciate the long dragged out lectures he gives me but all I keeping thinking is I'm never going to get that time I lost listening to his diatribes back am I?

With some free time and procrastination, I followed the path of others before me. I googled the names of people I knew from my younger days. A girl I knew who cheated her way in high school now is married with 2.5 kids on the North Shore. Did I mention the fact she also has the tony part-time gig downtown? I found out that my best friend from high school has moved from the west coast and now lives in Packer country. The boy who I had my first dance with is alive and well with a woman who makes him happy. The majority of people have moved on with their lives and are official grownups.

I reflected upon this information with some sadness. It seems like everyone except me got the memo on how to get to the rest of their life. Some classmates I don't envy however. They've experienced the death of one of their parents. I'll figure it out one of these days.